Wednesday, November 15, 2006

State of Apathy vs. Martin

When have I ever written anything
Bigger than myself
When have I stood for the rights of
Other people
People less fortunate than me
Have I ever told the story
Of someone else
With no gain for myself
Of someone else
Instead of me
Instead of the skipping record
Of my inner anthem
Plastered over parchment
And screaming for attention
Did you see my fists curl
Did you see me carry a gun
And stand on a wall
Did you see me rise to the challenge
Of preventing the oppression
Of good, kind-hearted people anywhere

No, you never have

And the swings will stop swinging
And the merry-go-rounds will stop spinning
And little feet will not dig in the sand to take root
And the sun will not nourish
The photosynthesis of our imaginations
Because the voices
that shouted out
“Nevermore”

From years ago
Have faded into
the greedy whispers of
“Give me more.”


Saturday, November 4, 2006

Quantum Physics

Maybe you were looking for a cryptic
Way to ask
But writing it down makes it solid
So stop staring and say it

You can’t strip this down any further
Honesty is in two-tone grayscale
And this cursor keeps blinking
In and out of existence

Foot taps
Sweaty palms
And rolling eyes
All postpone the question

While my dreams are frozen
At zero degrees Kelvin
I’ll simply ask
Here we go

Shall we masturbate like monkeys
Or invent the wheel today?

Friday, October 27, 2006

...?

I’m just amazed by
All the crazy things
That will happen to me
Before I die
Some things will hurt
And others will make me smile
All before I shut my
take a nap for a while


Friday, September 22, 2006

Optimist

Hi
Hi
How are you
I’m fine
Me too
That’s good
Great
Where have you been
Waiting for you
For me
Yeah
Why
I didn’t want to start without you
Start what
The rest of our lives
How do you know
Know what
That I’m the one


Wednesday, September 6, 2006

SPC(P) Filbeck

blond haired
blue-eyed soldier
you kissed me on stage once
while your boyfriend looked on
now your delicate hands
wrapped awkwardly around an M-16
fall away
pulling sheep out of a bag
you'll make them all smile
always
an inverted shepherd
sending the herd home
to live in the dust
when it’s you whose lost your way
let them pray to the east
your sun sets in the west



Friday, August 18, 2006

a kid

it is toys made sticky by dog piss
and slipped between copies of
Popular Science and Omni
a broken fish bowl
and runaway turtles
wet pavement warmed by afternoon suns
and fathers with cancer
and father’s with cancer
and fathers of cancer

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Real Estate Agent

A roll of quarters will buy you
all the truth you need in this town
‘cause it’s not always sincere
when their plastic stretches
into a smile
tight lipped and restrained
holding back age and sorrow
is just part of the job
but honestly did you expect them
to just break down and cry
And, being the ornament that I am
can be a good thing sometimes
perverting their reflections
back to them
can only make them laugh

Monday, April 10, 2006

room #5

I have not yet found
the sun in the afternoon sky
and yet so much of me
has joined the
other tenants at Forrest Lawn

Death never laughs
nor does He weep
when touching the lives of poets
of mouthwash-literature
brushing by the hollow shells
of broken minds

mimes

laid out in reasonable fashion
to brush with tooth brush
and comb with hair comb
in this planned existence
this subdivision of flesh

And while I tip-toe through
layers of insecurities
the atmosphere of smiles
remains inflated
growing big like puss-filled balloons


Saturday, April 1, 2006

Bricklayer

No, I can’t make it,
but have fun anyways
I’d be there but my maturity’s delayed
you know how it is
with brick and mortar
it goes up fast and stays forever

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Life part three

Scrape it out and
bury it
I never want to see it again
Festered and soiled
black tar
so hard
to push far
scrape away and be gone
I want to be new
forget what’s done
slip in the womb
back from so long
no space to breathe
Seething demons
screaming
me
hopeless hope renewed
are you new, too?

Thursday, March 9, 2006

Los Angeles, circa 2006 A.D.

I am the statue trapped in a block of stone
on the side of the freeway
And when you drive past me going sixty-five
on your way to work
do you think your block is less immobile?

All the palm trees know only know one thing:
that the best view in LA is from the tops of their crowns
And as an ant I can tell you
that I don’t know what a palm tree is
nor do I care
my path was laid out before me long before I was born

So burn your tongue with a hot cup of coffee
with all the lesser men that comprise my friends
Our minds are smaller than our dicks
and our thoughts are dimmer than the LCD’s on our PDAs

I’ll try to be perfect like Jesus Christ
and leave my halo behind
‘cause I don’t need it in Hollywood
And you’ll try to be like Orson Wells
‘cause you think you're perfect
you can eat yourself to death since you’re never wrong
just don’t choke on the fish fingers –
you and I have a lot more of nothing to do tomorrow

how I lost Armenia

When the windows opened
There was a big hole inside her
And blood was everywhere
And I couldn’t fill the whole
Even though I selfishly tried
And the way I love her
Is a part of me that only is
Because she’s here
And when I find myself the happiest I’ll ever be
Staring into new windows
With no holes inside her
A part of me will hurt
Because for a split second
I’ll remember what it was like
To look into her eyes

Wednesday, March 8, 2006

no more metaphors

yes, I’ll grow up it’s true you know
and she will too
not like before but different
and when we meet in my daydreams
we’ll be different people but better
and we’ll start again
and pretend our past was a first draft we threw away
then we’ll regress again
and blame ourselves
for connecting in the first place
a couple of random electrons obeying the law
but I promise
no more metaphors

Friday, March 3, 2006

A Sloth at the Gates of the Water Cooler

>>I have nothing to do at work today
>>Staying awake has made me quiet
>>I'll put it all off until the sun goes down
>>And berate my tendencies tomorrow