Sometimes I scream
inside myself
so loudly
it turns my
ears red
and my heart stops
for a second
it gets pressed
by something
and it hurts
then it's quiet
It happens when
I'm just breathing
Or waiting for the rain
to fall
busying myself by
drafting outlines
of things to do
things to come
plans to make
my mark
rather than
leaving a stain
Plans to touch
every single person
everywhere
for one second
long enough
to hear me scream
inside myself
